The epiphany hits me when I no longer saw the keychain that I gave you hanging with your car keys.
I guess, this is it?
It’s been a year. I’m surprised at myself that I can still see your shadows wherever I go.
That’s just shows how much you mean to me.
I don’t entirely blame you. I understand your purpose. It’s just myself. This is my battle.
I understand why envy is one of seven deadly sins. It’s dangerous and scary at times.
Especially when I do get envious of my friends landed a nice job or a nice soulmate for themselves. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for my friends who get such beautiful opportunity, but it breaks my heart when I look myself in the mirror and asking,
‘Apa je yang kau dah buat?’
‘Kenapa kau tak macam orang lain?’
‘Kenapa aku sedih tengok kau macam ni?’
‘Kenapa hati aku sakit?’
I must say, this year is by far the darkest year I’ve ever had in my life.
But it’s too soon to claim that eh?
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