December | 2014 | snsalwa's

Time sure flies.

Here I am, just graduated few months ago and still jobless. (not really, I’m employed but as a part-time job)

My dad says just try my best. my mom seems like the idea with me staying home or further my masters.

I’ve been applying jobs, I’ve gone to interviews. I guess, I didn’t do my best. Even tho my parents are okay but it’s painful you know to hear them saying it’s okay.

And… I’m seeing someone. Well, we agreed to make it work. Insya-Allah.

He’s amazing. He’s so amazing that I wonder how in the world he likes me back. I mean, come on, in this post-modern era, who would have wanted a dramatic chubby slanted girl as a significant other. I MEAN LIKE OF COURSE I FEEL INSECURE.

all my life, people been judging my physical appearance until to the extent it’s hard to accept myself even tho sometimes I’m okay with chubby self. I hate myself for thinking too much on what people thinks at times.
It’s as if I’ve conducted crime. Maybe it’s just me being dramatic. This inferiority complex.
the fact that he accepts me, the way I am. I’m happy.

However, this does not mean I’ll go eat junk food or eating and sleep forever whatever. Hahaha. I will try my best to maintain a healthy diet and discipline myself to get used to routine that my friend has been nagging for me to do. i don’t want to aim to be skinny, I just want to be healthy. that’s all.
PRAY FOR MEH.

AND I SHALL HUNT JOBS NON-STOP.

I’m happy with my family that cares, my friends that still stick around through thick and thin and of course, him for willing to be with me.

2014, so far you’ve been awesome year. Let’s finish up 2014 days with awesome memories!

lol, thank god no one really read this blog.

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Monthly Archives: December 2014

I’m not giving up.

Great.

2015 is around the corner.

SO WHAT?

Today, I’m older. Again