that sincere face of yours shines
whenever you talked about things that you like.
I guess that’s the only time you put down your mask.
so sincere that I’ve almost forgot the persona you’ve been using.
so sincere that I’ve almost forgot the mask that you’ve been putting on.
so sincere that I’ve almost forgot why I care about you.
I may not your best friend
I may not your ideal girlfriend
but surely its not just a pretend.
we met.
nothing much.
we talked.
hey, few things in common.
we went out.
hey, new things about you.
we hang out.
more discoveries.
we became friends.
you’re fun.
I had a crush on you.
you’ve no idea.
you’re having a crush on someone.
my heart die a lil inside.
you’re happy.
It’s tingling inside.
you want her to be happy.
I want you to be happy too.
you’re hurt.
I’m dying.
the way you looked at her, the way you described her, the way you draw her eyes, how your aura changes around her, how concerned you are about her, you’re willing to be the shoulder for her to cry on, the way you adore her, the way you admire her, that enthusiasm the moment you see her, that moment of excitement when someone mentioned her name, how her views is important, how perfect she is in your eyes.
watching you from afar.
the moment I felt something towards you
brace yourself,
for you might be blessed with my curse that charms
the curse that will put charm on you
the charm that will let others to realized your existence
the charm that will curse me while charming you
by taking away my existence
yes, a magic curse for me a magic charm to you
or pretense?
I miss it how my dad would send me off to school
I miss it how my mom would prepare for me some packed lunch
I miss it how my dad would correct and check my homework
I miss it how my mom would correct and check my qiraa’ti’s recitations
i miss it how my dad would tell his tale while he’s driving me to school and to home
I miss it how I can save my pocket money everyday without fail
I miss it how rm2 is enough for a day
I miss it how I can remember all of my classmates’s birthday
I miss it how selekeh I was and wouldn’t give a damn about it
I miss it how my mom would shushh me if the grownups are in the middle of conversations
I miss it how my dad would asked me to not to touch his gadgets and things
I miss it how a cubic puzzle is one of my biggest problems in my life
everyone is wearing masks.
only you, your own self know what is exactly behind the mask.
only you, your own self know what is exactly looks like.
yes, not a mask. masks. interesting isn’t it?
masks. a tool of escapism. which will let other people assuming different things.
they might see it. they might not.
for masks can be thick or can be thin.
or maybe transparent?
you’ll never know.
why wearing masks?
well, are you ready to witness me naked from masks?
I’m sitting on a chair sipping black coffee, quietly.
watching other people doing their own things.
some are reading while eating.
some are chatting with friends.
some are enjoying their time with their loved ones.
some are trying to flirt with someone.
some are just enjoy their food in silence.
some are like me. sitting alone, sipping coffee.
I used to not enjoy coffee very much and I forgot when did I started drinking coffee. All I know is that coffee helps in making me awake or helping me feel awake. I don’t know
maybe because of its bitterness. that sweetly bitterness taste of coffee put me at ease.
watching people is actually interesting. you don’t know what are things that they’ve gone through, you just don’t know them.
but the fact you’re witnessing they can enjoy their time even just for a short while.
the smile, the laughter, the warmth.
is mesmerizing.
ahh, need to refill my coffee.
“Some days just pass by and
Some days are unforgettable
We can’t choose the reason why
But we can choose what to do from the day after
So with that hope, with that determination
Let’s make tomorrow a brighter and better day”
– One Ok Rock-Be The Light
2013.
the year that I’ve learned how to stand steadily.
comes hell or high water, just keep standing.
the year that I’ve learned how to shine even though you’re more comfortable with darkness.
enough with comfort zone, now its turn to shine.
the year that I’ve learned the meaning of courage.
embrace honesty, embrace sincerity then you’ll gain courage.
the year that I’ve learned about life is all about options.
the choice is in your hands.
the year that I’ve learned how to wake up from fantasy and face reality.
bitter reality is way better than the sweetest fantasy.
2014, let’s see what you’ve got.
“You can’t take your time, there’s just 3 minutes
So here’s another Wo Wo
Don’t wanna pass the baton
I’m gonna take it
and then I’m gonna
Please you please me
Please you please me”
– One Ok Rock-69
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